Spring cleaning.
Switching clothes.
The breakup, I never saw coming.
What do you do when you fall out of love with the clothing that once carried you through various seasons?
This is the most heartbreaking moment of 25.
Those dang 20-somethings
If you’ve been following along on my 20-something’s adventure, you would know that I’ve been having a lot of “oh my” moments. Whatever that means!
Today was the day to bring out my spring and summer clothes and put away my winter garb.
I’ve also started reading a book about developing style and having better shopping options.
The book told me to challenge myself to clean my closet, the typical get rid of the old that I no longer like, and figure out what to do with what I do like.
While I only read chapter one (I know, I know), the impact it has had on me is crucial.
It’s been less than four hours, and I am STRESSED!
Graphic tees are becoming pajama shirts
Because why would a 25-year-old Chan walk around in a Rugrats tee?
It’s so weird because a part of me feels like I am falling in love again with things I once enjoyed. Another part of me feels like I am falling out of love with fashion, people, and concepts that I stood by.
While I love my Five Below shirts with the snarky sayings and characters I adore, I don’t want to wear them anymore.
And it wasn’t because someone told me not to, it’s a personal choice. I don’t see it fitting my current style.
I am kinda torn because I feel like I spent so many years building my style for it to change overnight. I am not mad at it, but my current style doesn’t match my old summer CLOTHES!
Miniskirts were MY BRAND
Now… I hate them. I don’t hate them, but I don’t want to wear printed mini skirts anymore.
Well, some but not all.
I don’t even desire to wear pleated skirts anymore!
Is my Clueless era coming to an end?
I’ll forever love that movie and my style development, but what’s next?
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Breaking up with your closet sucks
Give me a moment of silence, please.
This is hard.
I feel like I am growing up right before my own eyes, and I don’t know how to feel.
Because what am I going to wear this summer if I hate all my clothes?
I mean… yeah, I do work at a clothing store. It shouldn’t be hard to put new looks together.
I know what style I am heading towards, but I am sad.
Growing up feels good, but…
It also feels like another part of me is going away. Which is a good thing, I am no longer that 21-year-old who wants to wear graphic tees and printed mini skirts with knee socks.
But why do I feel like I am breaking up with her, too? I mean 21-year-old Chan was a beautiful young lady, and we’ve had our moment of “It’s okay”, but now I don’t even like her clothes?
The clothes she spent years curating at H&M, the thrift store, and her local shops.
College me is just paraphilia now.
Then I am saving items for my “future daughter”
Of course, she needs a 2020 SHEIN skirt in the year 2040?!
Wait till she sees my vintage blazers.
I am saving items for these “future kids” that don’t exist, and I am giving away items that I used to love.
It’s okay
Twenty-five has been a game-changer for me. She’s eye-opening, testing, and very much a “moving forward” type of player.
A lot has happened to me in this chapter, not bad things. No.
All has been lessons and blessings. Lessons that say, “Yeah, keep going” or “Yeah, you’re just maturing now. It’s okay.”
The journey has been beautiful, hard but beautiful, because I’ve learned so much about myself, I’ve been able to come back to myself, and I love it.
So, to my closet
Those clothes carry so many memories. A part of so many photoshoots, but they’re just clothes. They don’t own me, they don’t define me.
I think it’s actually beautiful. I am breaking up with that girl who loved those tees and miniskirts because I am evolving.
And that doesn’t mean that down the line, I won’t wear another graphic tee or mini skirt. I think it just means my interest is growing to something else, and that’s fine.
There is beauty in growth, and sometimes, to truly see it, it starts with your closet.
Let’s Talk About It
Have you broken up with your closet?